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六年及以后

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六年前,差不多也是這個時候,我開始偏頭痛。我要祝賀自己已經走了這么遠。

 

從偏頭痛到抑郁癥,再到焦慮癥、驚恐發作,甚至試圖自殺,再回首恍然非真。

 

在我的人生規劃里,我沒料到會有這樣一段行程,如此迂回,如此曲折,瀕臨絕境。這場挑戰釋放了我體內的力量,力量之大超出我的想象。

 

沮喪之時,我得以自省;無望之時,我重獲了創造力;生病之時,我明白了健康的含義;絕望之時,人與人的關系更加緊密,我與靈魂伴侶因而共結連理。

 

這場情緒病迫使我放棄身份、名利和無關緊要的點頭之交,卻也給了我一個機會,讓我專注于真正重要的人,那就是我自己。

 

相信自己不需要來自父母、老師或同事的外部認同。別人的想法無法定義我。怨憤、暴怒和心酸提醒我要設置情緒界限,遠離那些我一時無法應付的外部勢力。

 

我必須學著聽從自己的內心,做我感覺對的事情。停下手頭的工作,就在那兒干站一會兒。做自己就好。

 

要做的事還有很多。驚恐發作的毛病還沒有好全,但我的辨識能力有了提高。我把抱抱熊和小灰熊裝進心里,這就是全部的我,我欣然接受。

 

從內心放射出的自信源于不懼脆弱的勇氣。

 

我敢說你也能勇敢地接納自己,無論是光亮面還是陰暗面。

 

我也祝賀你們,因為你們還在繼續著人生的征程。

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about Noch Noch

Enoch Li, (pen name: Noch Noch) was born and raised in Hong Kong and Australia. She has also studied / worked / lived in the US, France, UK, Japan, The Netherlands, China, and has travelled to more than 40 countries. She loves travelling and her curiosity in foreign cultures and languages has led her to enjoy her life as an international executive in the banking & finance industry. However, she was forced to take time off work in 2010 due to her illnesses and after spending time in recovery, cooking, practising Chinese calligraphy, reading and writing – in short, learning to take care of herself and letting out the residual work stress, she has transitioned into a Social Entrepreneur and founded BEARAPY to help corporates make workplaces mentally healthy, and support executives to become more resilient.