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如果那讓我悲痛,對我來說就是問題

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我把自己一頭扔進心理醫生辦公室的沙發,抓過一個紅色的抱枕放在膝頭就打開了自己的抱怨匣子。我覺得自己像是一個不知感恩被寵壞了的小屁孩兒。

我抱怨自己過去兩年中沒有收入,生活水準降低。我不能像以前那樣購物,不能肆無忌憚地買自己想要的東西,而絲毫不去考慮信用卡的帳單。叫午飯前我需要仔細考慮買什麼吃。這不是世界末日,這是開始過節儉的生活。

向大街上望去,一個身材矮小的老頭穿著滿是補丁的棉衣在寒風中尋找垃圾桶裏別人丟棄的塑膠瓶。他四處收集到的100來個瓶子也許能賣到幾毛錢,這便是他一天的收入,足夠他買上半個麵包,撐到明天。

而我,滿心沮喪卻只是因為不能買來的路上看到的一個毫無用處的小飾品。

很多人深陷貧苦而且得了比我嚴重得多的疾病。儘管我們應該對我們擁有的幸福感恩,我們卻不能靠與那些不幸的人做比較去換取幸福感。

如果那讓我悲痛,它對我來說就是個問題,而我必須找到辦法解決它。

對我生活的改變感到不快並沒什麼錯;我需要警覺起來不受這種感覺的控制。我必須調整自己的情緒和思緒來和改變戰鬥,面對它並繼續我的生活。對我來說,這是個問題,而我必須解決它。這裏沒有比較。我沒必要有負罪感。

每個人都處於自我實現中不同的舞臺上。我們都有自己的故事。我尊重你們的,所以也請尊重我的。

翻譯:楊征

about Noch Noch

Enoch Li, (pen name: Noch Noch) is born and raised in Hong Kong and Australia. She has also studied / worked / lived in the US, France, UK, Japan, The Netherlands, China, and has travelled to more than 40 countries. She loves travelling and her curiosity in foreign cultures and languages has led her to enjoy her life as an international executive in the banking & finance industry. However, she was forced to take time off work in 2010 due to her illnesses and after spending time in recovery, cooking, practising Chinese calligraphy, reading and writing – in short, learning to take care of herself and letting out the residual work stress, she has transitioned into a Play Consultant for corporates interested in creative change management and employee well-being using the psychology of playfulness.