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祝我生日快樂——哦，其實是祝我的博客生日快樂——今天我的博客兩歲了！

我不是為了寫博客而開始寫博客的，也不是想成為作家。我是為了照料自己，是為了反思，也是為了進行認知思考。這是我的心理治療——一種我希望能夠藉以啟發別人，並給予那些有需要的人一些鼓勵的心理治療。

昨天，我從頭到尾讀了自己所有的博客文章。我發現自己仍然有很多需要丟掉和重新塑造的習慣。我的思維依然需要提煉。我還是有太多的擔心。但是從兩年前那些我臥床不起的日子，那些每天要去醫院看病的日子，那些因為沒有胃口而失掉15公斤體重的日子到現在，我已經有了很大的進步。因此，儘管目前我還在接受治療，身體上還會有病痛，但我應該為今天的自己感到驕傲。

我的博客內容看上去有些星羅棋佈的。我仍然不知道怎樣定位自己的讀者群，也不知道誰在讀我的博客。有時候這裏一天有幾百的流覽量，但有時候卻是零流覽量。我已經不再關心也不去分享那些數據了。我想，我只管去寫就好了。

這裏我把自己最喜歡的一些博文從新歸組：

關於抑鬱症

1. jackhammer on my head
2. SH!T – i have ALL those symptoms, WTF???
3. i hated my own reflection
4. why do I even need to be depressed?
5. sudden collapse today
6. still looking for reasons to stay alive
7. spinning out of control
8. inspiring blog posts for recovery from depression (part I of II)
9. inspiring blog posts for recovery from depression (part II of II)
10. type A depression
11. if I could choose a normal life, would I?
12. a trip to ER
13. 10 things not to say to a depressed person (and please don’t ever say to me either)
14. letter to myself
15. stuck under snow
16. random thoughts
17. delusional

關於生活和健康平衡

1. are you ignoring these signs too?
2. and in the beginning, there was stress…
3. revamping thoughts
4. “sorry, i can’t do dinner, got a conference call / meeting / work…”
5. compulsive emailing
6. are vacations really a holiday?
7. the challenge of “just chilling”
8. “do you need a retirement coach?”
9. the balance model : stop “achieving”
10. why “work-life” balance? advocating a 3.5 day weekend

 

關於成長

1. the irony of religion
2. the disappointment sweater underneath
3. revamping the tiger mum style – to “be” or to “do”?
4. confronting the past
5. letter to my 16-year-old
6. tiger mum in action

 

關於內心的平靜

1. smell the flowers
2. the moment of now
3. let it go
4. someone I admire the most: Kung-Fu Panda
5. “I believe I am changing the world”

 

關於自我認知

1. unnerving comparison
2. do I look like I fly economy?
3. pride & prejudice
4. attributing blame
5. masterchef to perfection
6. apologies for my arrogance
7. anger is good for you

 

關於寫作和激情

1. auguries of innocence
2. writing poetry again
3. writing poetry again – la suite…

 

關於創作力 ／ 小熊專家

1. i am a baer and my name is floppie
2. bearapy
3. making life BEAR able – playful creativity, a rejuvenating force against depression

 

關於愛和支持

1. an Angry Birds friend
2. the partner in this whole ordeal
3. a no-guilt-no-pressure friend –
4. “…if I just lay here, would you lie with me and just forget the world…”
5. for me the bells toll – taking a break, getting married

 

我會接著寫下去。我會繼續照料自己。

我的確為自己而感到驕傲。我希望你也為我而感到驕傲。

翻譯：楊征