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I sat in the middle of the room. I could see dainty bits of white powder scattered around me. My arms were limp and numb, as if high voltage had snazzed through my nervous system. My buttocks stuck to the cold tiles like dried up glue; the weight of my corps felt heavier than I…

I miss you

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Strange. There must be more than 299 posts on this blog, which was my count last year, and it has irked me that the number wasn’t rounded. My dashboard says 700+, but that seems like too many. Which number is correct? I do not actually care. can’t deal with numbers, especially the flurry of statistics…

meet joe black

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Peanut butter. Death, as Joe Black, liked peanut butter on a spoon. Me too. That is one of my favourite scene in one of my favourite movies of all time. The other scene I liked is the one where Bill and Joe gazes at the fireworks before reaching the end. “There are two things cannot…

tourbillon

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I am obsessed with this watch. Bewitched by it. I long to feel the platinum on my wrist, caress the cage’s surface, and stare at the dark emerald green until I am lost. Yesterday, I went for a haircut, to fix a horrible haircut I had last week. I had not flipped through any fashion magazines…

frozen

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Quite a few weeks ago, Riviane handed me a piece of paper the moment I walked into the door. “Mummy, look, look, look!” In the Unknown All is Found Profound and cheesy at the same time, I thought. She told me her teacher gave it to her. I was perplexed at why an adult would…

fused

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I am a parasite. Fused with whatever shelter I lay my claws on. Such mutuality has become codependence, and codependence hinders growth for both the host and the parasite. I need to break away. I have lost myself completely – again. What was once a relationship that is more than the sum of its parts,…

wiped out

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I have not been able to feel much lately. The numbness hangs in the stillness. If I could feel, at least I can understand whether I was depressed or anxious or both. If this was depression, this is another level I have not yet known – would it also count as personal growth and development?…

walking home

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Mostly I drive to get from one place to another, otherwise I take a taxi. After a meeting on Friday, I drove home. When the car was squarely parked in the basement, I sat there for a few minutes, listening to the radio playing Faye Wong. I decided I did not want to go home…

what would people say?

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What would people say in an eulogy at my funeral if I took my own life? What would my obituary say? “She, who advocated for mental wellness, decided that in the end, it was her way to liberate herself from the years of inner torment. But why? Why did she not live up to her…

love in depression, depression in love

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“Depression is the flaw in love. To be creatures who love, we must be creatures who can despair at what we lose, and depression is the mechanism of that despair.” The Noonday Demon: An Anatomy of Depression”, Andrew Solomon Something in Solomon’s opening paragraph rings melancholy with some deep profound meaning that I do not…

about Noch Noch

Enoch Li, (pen name: Noch Noch) was born and raised in Hong Kong and Australia. She has also studied / worked / lived in the US, France, UK, Japan, The Netherlands, China, and has travelled to more than 40 countries. She loves travelling and her curiosity in foreign cultures and languages has led her to enjoy her life as an international executive in the banking & finance industry. However, she was forced to take time off work in 2010 due to her illnesses and after spending time in recovery, cooking, practising Chinese calligraphy, reading and writing – in short, learning to take care of herself and letting out the residual work stress, she has transitioned into a Social Entrepreneur and founded BEARAPY to help corporates make workplaces mentally healthy, and support executives to become more resilient.