I have not been able to feel much lately. The numbness hangs in the stillness. If I could feel, at least I can understand whether I was depressed or anxious or both. If this was depression, this is another level I have not yet known – would it also count as personal growth and development?…
Mostly I drive to get from one place to another, otherwise I take a taxi. After a meeting on Friday, I drove home. When the car was squarely parked in the basement, I sat there for a few minutes, listening to the radio playing Faye Wong. I decided I did not want to go home…
This last week I have been thinking about going on a solo trip. I have trouble, though, thinking of anywhere I want to visit. I don’t think I want to visit anywhere. Rather, I just want to get away and hide. Then, to think about the practicalities of flights, hotels, food, I stared at my…
What would people say in an eulogy at my funeral if I took my own life? What would my obituary say? “She, who advocated for mental wellness, decided that in the end, it was her way to liberate herself from the years of inner torment. But why? Why did she not live up to her…
“Depression is the flaw in love. To be creatures who love, we must be creatures who can despair at what we lose, and depression is the mechanism of that despair.” The Noonday Demon: An Anatomy of Depression”, Andrew Solomon Something in Solomon’s opening paragraph rings melancholy with some deep profound meaning that I do not…
I had regarded business class flights as privileges that not many would have the privilege to enjoy. If you are not convinced of my sense of superiority, read the Prologue of my book, “Stress in the City: Playing My Way Out of Depression”, where I document a journey on a flatbed in the air, and…
It has been hard to pull myself away from the news, even though I know I should go to bed and mend my migraine. I have stopped scrolling WeChat moments for quite some time, and I hardly read the accounts I have subscribed to, but something caught my eye and despite knowing that clicking on…
This is an ugly world. I have had to stop reading the news because it makes me depressed. Constant news of people inflicting pain on other human beings, animals, the earth… some times I cannot believe that these are other humans I was reading about. The things we do to each other, to kids, to…
This whole mental health push feels like it is getting over the top Sure there is a lot to do. Yes, its great more people are in it. But it feels like people are in it because it’s the next bandwagon. And it’s the “next big thing” so we need to be seen as part…
I am depressed. Or I should say I find very many aspects of life depressing. One morning last week, I woke up super early to get ready for a client meeting. Something popped up on my feed and to my own devastation, I read the news. It was a report about a child sexual abuse…
Enoch Li, (pen name: Noch Noch) was born and raised in Hong Kong and Australia. She has also studied / worked / lived in the US, France, UK, Japan, The Netherlands, China, and has travelled to more than 40 countries. She loves travelling and her curiosity in foreign cultures and languages has led her to enjoy her life as an international executive in the banking & finance industry. However, she was forced to take time off work in 2010 due to her illnesses and after spending time in recovery, cooking, practising Chinese calligraphy, reading and writing – in short, learning to take care of herself and letting out the residual work stress, she has transitioned into a Social Entrepreneur and founded BEARAPY to help corporates make workplaces mentally healthy, and support executives to become more resilient.
