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self congratulations

self congratulations
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We all know I am a guru in self-flagellation, so let me see how well I do at self-congratulations. Perhaps a dark person like me can grudgingly admit that double rainbows sometimes appear in the skies, even in Beijing… Every project I look at what I could have done better. Every project I wonder if participants…

the fearful iceberg

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There are no shortage of blog posts and writings about fears, and how to over come fears. I am not sure there is a panacea to fear. In fact, fear protects us sometimes. A sense of fear triggers alarm bells in our survival instinct to preserve ourselves, to run from the situation or to fight…

the inadequacy test

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A year ago, I had the opportunity to find out some of my deepest, darkest secrets through my studies. I discovered that I felt inadequate all the time. A year later, I had the chance to do the same exercise again. The results was disconcerting – I was still struggling with the same challenge and feeling…

Transcending my inner bitch

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I am a bitch. I am critical, judgmental, and 90% of the time I think people are stupid. This inner critic is driven by a fear of feeling inadequate, that I was not good enough. This has obvious connections of my fear of dependence on others – because I fear myself not being good enough,…

I am mediocre

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  With all the self-flagellation of how inadequate I am, or the jealousy I feel towards others I classify as having “made it,” today, I come to the somber revelation that I am mediocre. I am part of the mediocrity. I am not the same league as those I aspire to be.

“Should” “Should not”

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I overheard these conversations recently: “You should not complain about your work, many people do not have a job…” “You should enjoy your pregnancy, many people can’t get pregnant… “You should be happy, many people don’t have a home…” “You should spend more time with your daughter to build a bond…” “You should not spend…

what have you done in 2015?

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I don’t know the name of the song, but the lyrics go: “So this is Christmas, and what have you done? Another year over…” I am struck always by “what have you done?” Each year, I feel that I have not done much, have not been productive as I wanted to be, and have not…

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A recent coffee chat with a mentor reminded me of an experience I had about a few years ago at a dinner with my husband. Back then, I was feeling even more lost than I am today. After the tedious formal introductions and chit chat about the weather and smog – which in my opinion is not…

Making up for lost time

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Every morning I wake up, I would be in a flurry. Get myself dressed, charge my phone, swing my arms about to tick the box of doing some exercise, go through the calendar for the day, and get the baby up. Once she is done with breakfast, we head off to some playgroup for the…

A new treadmill

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I had an imagery of myself on the treadmill. Ever since the launch of the Free Ebook on depression a month ago, I had been in non-stop motion.

about Noch Noch

Noch Noch is born and raised in Hong Kong and Australia. She has also studied / worked / lived in the US, France, UK, Japan, The Netherlands, China, and has travelled to more than 40 countries. Noch Noch loves travelling and her curiosity in foreign cultures and languages has led her to enjoy her life as an international executive for the last 7 years in the banking & finance industry. However, she was forced to take time off work in 2011 due to her illnesses and now spends her time in recovery, cooking, practising Chinese calligraphy, reading and writing – in short, learning to take care of herself and letting out the residual work stress.