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The Pooping Donut

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I was eating a raspberry jam donut a few days ago. After taking a huge bite and putting it back down on the plate, I noticed that jam was leaking from the other side of the donut. I was in hysterics – by myself at the table. I found it wildly amusing. I took a photo of the donut and put it up on Instagram, sent it to a few friends on WhatsApp, and shared it with my friends o…

Beethoven’s Fifth Symphony and Canto Pop

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This post is dedicated to one of my readers, P., — thank you for the suggestion!

I started playing the piano when I was 7 years old. Bang bang bang…. When I streamed back into the HK education system after a few years running wild in Australia with my family, I had to learn the piano properly, taking examinations and theories.

I learnt to play Beethoven…

Yoyogi Park – the fragility of my being

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This post is part of the Travel Series – reflections and muses based on the cities I have lived in or travelled to.

My departure was set from Tokyo was set for early June in 2009. For one last time that spring, I savored the chance for hanami, not knowing that all would change from then onwards.

Hana meant “flowers”, and mi meant “to look” in Japanes…

Butterflies

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Butterflies petrify me. Such beautiful creatures, so harmless, so delicate, so gentle – their unobtrusive presences anywhere within a radius of 1 meter is sufficient to make me freeze on the spot. When on my own, I would squeal. When others are around, I try to suppress the scream, and walk away calmly. I am in such fear of them that my psychologist decided I n…

I hate waiting

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I loathe waiting. I do not like to wait at the traffic lights, I do not like waiting for responses, I do not like to wait in line, I do not like waiting for my instant noodles to cook… I hate waiting.

I have been overwhelmingly frustrated in the past year. It has been a year of waiting for other people to reply or take action….

Energyless

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I was frustrated at myself (what’s new?) during today’s session with my psychologist. I asked him, “When would I ever be fit to go back to work or just have a proper life?”…

I want to die (don’t worry, it’s just a sensational title for effect)

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When I stood at my friend’s balcony on the 24th floor, tipping my toes up and leaning over to see the garden he was pointing out, I heard the siren of thought in my head: “lean further over, fall off and you can die and be done with it all.” Someone remarked at the neon lights in the garden and I was jolted out of my reverie. I backed into the living room with num…

Bear Room – Coming Home

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This post is part of the Travel Series – reflections and muses based on the cities I have lived in or travelled to. If you are looking for recommendations on food, things to do and the wows of a city, please go to other travel blogs.

As inspiring as every trip may be, warped with sights and laden with myriad camera and Instagram opportunities, my favorite plac…

Jigsaw Puzzle

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Each deformed piece makes no sense. Some have a blur of colour on them; others a transient pattern. Occasionally, a propitious one or two bear a distinct feature to indicate that it might be the 7th piece from the northeast corner of the jigsaw puzzle. The end goal is clear: assemble the jigsaw pieces to exhibit the image on the cover of the puzzle box. The proces…

about Noch Noch

Noch Noch is born and raised in Hong Kong and Australia. She has also studied / worked / lived in the US, France, UK, Japan, The Netherlands, China, and has travelled to more than 40 countries. Noch Noch loves travelling and her curiosity in foreign cultures and languages has led her to enjoy her life as an international executive for the last 7 years in the banking & finance industry. However, she was forced to take time off work in 2011 due to her illnesses and now spends her time in recovery, cooking, practising Chinese calligraphy, reading and writing – in short, learning to take care of herself and letting out the residual work stress.