Where is the system? Who is the system?
I do not know. But it is powerful. I just know.
Last week, there was a moment during work, when I felt the invisible force and energy of the system.
“Be you. The system will speak to you.” A friend & Professor said to me, before I was to do something I had not ever done before, but I did ask for it. So here it is.
And then, there were 50+ pairs of eyes watching me. For five long minutes between signaling and the actual start, there was time infinity. In the five minutes, I felt a tsunami of energy coming towards me. It was a magnetic push and an inviting pull.
I whispered to myself, in my head, “Stand there, Enoch. Just stand still. Stand into the ground. Don’t let this tsunami push you back.” I stood still, clawing my toes into the earth through the grubby bottoms of my red & white sneakers. I let my feet soles sink into the earth, and I felt the Qi coming back through the weeds into my skin and seep into my being.
“Go meet it”, said a voice inside my mind.
So I did. I did not move, and I met the wave coming towards me, allowing it to come face to face with me. I held it there. And then, I walked into the pull.
It was as if I entered an energy field. Suddenly, I was one with it. I felt this buoyancy of power. It was the system, I knew it. I got a little lost in it but it found me, and from there on, I did what I needed to and could do for that part of the class. It was a freedom crafted and crafting, whilst I was watching myself at the same time, from another dimension of sensation.
That power, that energy field, that System. I cannot explain it. I can only feel it. I felt it so clearly, so alive inside of me, as if the System was exuding from me, and at the same time, the System transpired through me, enveloped me, cradled me, held me.
It was extraordinary. It was like a succumbing to it, but not giving in as if there was no more me left. It was like an elevation at the same time, heightened on the force of it, but not being above it. In that very moment, when I was talking to some 7 people with another 8 or 9 hawking over, I saw the expanse of freedom from outside of myself.
I knew in that moment, exactly how insignificant I was in the universe, and how powerful I was with the universe. We all are. In that same moment, I understood that “Nothing mattered, that is why everything mattered. And because everything matters, nothing matters.”
Boundaries then transcend boundaries because of how strong they are. This system that we try so earnestly to comprehend, we forget that all we need to do is to feel it, and let it be felt….
Don’t just trust the process.
Have faith in the system.