summer escapade – in my wardrobe


Most people spend annual holidays during the summer somewhere exotic, preferably by the beach. I do not have this luxury at the moment, not least because of budget, but also because I do not fancy travelling with a crying 2-month old and a screaming 3-year old (okay I exaggerate, they are not that bad).

Escapades are meant to rejuvenate. Best done alone. I found a new escape that did not require a flight or expensive boutique hotel bookings.

It is calm, dark, and would only be able to fit one person. There are no windows. There is only one way in and out. And if you stayed there too long you could possibly suffocate, but for 5-10 minutes it is the most tranquil and peaceful place in my life at the moment. Not yet contaminated with people and dirty diapers.

My mini walk-in wardrobe. It is simply a corner tucked behind the bedroom door, but it has a door of its own.

Whenever I am in a rage, furious, and livid, I stomp into my wardrobe and bang the door close. Then I sit, or sprawl out on the floor. Cry if I will, then usually I calm down and go into trance-like mode.

The silence. The aloneness. The blackness around me. Very comforting.

A refuge.

There is something comforting about staying at home, as modern philosophers would agree.  Sometimes it does not have to be elaborate, nor planned.

It takes a few minutes to transport our minds to a fantasy place, to daydream, to stay with the anxiety and darkness. Then we can reemerge into the light, cuddle a bear, and soldier on. We must help ourselves, even given limited resources, and find a way amidst the noise and chatter.

I hope you find such solitude and space, even if it must be the toilet in your home. It is what you make it to be.

Believe in you. 

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about Noch Noch

Enoch Li, (pen name: Noch Noch) was born and raised in Hong Kong and Australia. She has also studied / worked / lived in the US, France, UK, Japan, The Netherlands, China, and has travelled to more than 40 countries. She loves travelling and her curiosity in foreign cultures and languages has led her to enjoy her life as an international executive in the banking & finance industry. However, she was forced to take time off work in 2010 due to her illnesses and after spending time in recovery, cooking, practising Chinese calligraphy, reading and writing – in short, learning to take care of herself and letting out the residual work stress, she has transitioned into a Social Entrepreneur and founded BEARAPY to help corporates make workplaces mentally healthy, and support executives to become more resilient.