A journey I did not expect or envision in the master plan for my life. A detour, a meandering, an impasse. This challenge has unleashed more power in me than I thought possible.
Forced to let go of identity, of vanity, of friendships that did not matter, I was given an opportunity through this mood disorder to focus on the people that did matter, i.e. myself.
Trust in myself does not require external approval from parents, teachers, or colleagues. What others think does not define me. Anger, rage, bitterness reminded me to set emotional boundaries to keep myself from forces that I could not deal with at that moment in time.
I must learn to listen to my heart, do what I feel is right. Stop doing things, but just stand there for a while. Just be me.
There is still more work to be done. Panic attacks have not disappeared, but there is heightened sense of discernment. I encapsulate the cuddly bear and the grizzly bear inside of me. All is me and I am okay with that.
Self-confidence that emanates from inside is grounded on the courage to be vulnerable.
I dare you to be brave and accept yourself – the beautiful and the dark side.