I was a conformist. Ironically, I had wanted to be special and outstanding. But I wanted to be accepted in school, teams, work, so I conformed to a framework. I smiled, I was polite, I was outgoing, sociable You know what I mean.
A few weeks ago, I caught a terrible cold, sneezing and wheezing like an excited elephant splashing water onto innocent onlookers. But last week, after I felt a trickle of energy from the post-thesis hiatus, I wanted to update my blog and shake things up a bit. Suffice to say, I have neglected this space over the last year or so.
I looked through both this blog, and Bearapy, and gasped at the flat statistics curves. Did not some renown blogger say that we should update it twice a week? I am updating it about twice a quarter if I got around to it. And the amount of interest in my bears? Zero.
I remember that when I first started this blog, I kept getting requests to post ads on my website, and random people wanting to do guest posts on pharmaceutical drugs for me. I turned them all down. I tried hard to figure out SEO to increase the readership for my blog, but gave up after a while. Too technically challenged. I thought about getting people to subscribe to my newsletters but I was too tired to write newsletters or try to figure out MailChimp. Moreover, my writing those blogging classes would be appalled! No headings, no lists, no word limit, no structure
I had investigated these methods and strategies before, and even them tried on a few posts. But I felt like I was deceiving my own integrity of writing. That style was not me. So, instead of conforming to get societys approval, I decided to stand my ground.
The internet has no lack of tips on how to create a successful blog. But what is successful? Who defines it? Why do we have to follow them?
Admittedly, I get grumpy when I read other websites with a million followers and I find the content crap and superficial. I wonder if those people who comment and rave about the article are doing so because they really think that, or they just want pingbacks to their own website? Yes, I am cynical.
Other websites are very well done, and I wish they would notice me and my ramblings. But so hard to break in.
Yet, what is my purpose of writing? To be famous (well, why not?), or to write for myself?
Conforming without understanding is like blindfolded sheep in a herd.
Non-conforming could be lonely though, for the black sheep was never well-liked.
At the very least, Sinatra would support me, I did it my way
Still searching for a way to revamp my two blogs and publish the ebook… Patience, patience…