If I dropped dead right now, I would have no regrets.
There are things I have not accomplished (publish a book), there are places I still would like to visit (Canada to see polar bear cubs, Finland to visit Santa Claus, Iceland to see the Northern lights…), and there are experiences I would like to attempt (sky diving). However, it would not matter if I did not do those things anymore.
It is not because I do not want to, it is because I have tried my best.
Whatever is, is.
In my present state of mind and life, everyday I do what pleases me.
When I have energy, I can walk my dog, practice calligraphy, read a book, and write. When I am ill or my mood falls into an abyss, I can hide in my Bear Room and feel safe.
All are moments in the present. There is no sense of being held up by the past, nor is there a dread for the future.
I have helped all I could; I have tried all I could.
I cannot control whether people would reply to my emails – but I can control my reactions. What good would it do to become frantic and frustrated, catastrophizing that because my agent hates my book idea or me and therefore he does not reply? If I let it go and stop minding, then maybe I will see some progress.
When there is no attachment to things, experiences, people, there will be no suffering, for we will not feel a sense of loss or sadness by not attaining these things, experiences, and people.
We bring ourselves pain. We bring ourselves anger.
Likewise, we can free ourselves, free our minds, free our desires.
Understanding that each moment in life is significant and yet, just a moment; understanding that what is, is; understanding that we can change only ourselves, is the key to all perceived challenges in our ephemeral life.
Enjoy the sunshine. Enjoy the rain. Enjoy the smog.
2014 will be magical.
Happy New Year, my friends. Thank you for staying with me for another year…
Be me. Be you.