I went for my regular psychologist appointment the other day. The receptionist remarked that she liked my outfit – a simple floral dress and pink Ugg boots with a pale pink scarf.
Surprised and flattered, I grunted a word of thanks, paid my bill and hurried on my way.
Three years ago I would go to the appointment dressed in yesterday’s clothes. Usually an old t-shirt, jeans skirt, stockings and black Ugg boots. The colour of my outfits was in shades of black and grey. I did not brush my hair since I would be rotting at home everyday, so when I went for the appointments I would simply pull it up into a ponytail with a frayed elastic band. I wrapped a navy green duvet jacket around me, hooded up, and a scarf covered the rest of my face. I stared at the ground as I dragged my feet to the clinic, up the stairs and to the waiting areas outside the doctors’ offices.
I never looked anyone in the eye when I talked. I mumbled. I was agitated at the nurses and receptionists. I slouched on the sofa whilst waiting my turn for consultation.
So today, I consider the easily overlooked fact that I picked an outfit, matched it with a necklace, and coordinated the colours of my scarf and ugg boots, a small step of progress in my recovery.
Pat on my back.
Take it one step at a time – depression will take a while to heal, but it will heal.
Happy New Year my dear reader and blogger friends. 2013 will be a good year for us all!