Last weekend I went to my friend’s home for Christmas dinner. Of course, Christmas songs play in the background. I heard the familiar lyrics: “So this is Christmas, and what have you done? Another year over, another just begun…” And I had a sudden moment of disappointment at myself.
Indeed, what had I done this year?
In flood a dreadlock of items I had not done: I had not completely recovered, I did not do my exercise, my head still hurts, I did not finish my e-book, I did not revamp my Bearapy website, so many blog drafts I did not finish… I did not, did not, did not… I did not do anything!!!
I started to mumble and groan at myself.
My friend asked me what was wrong. I told her. Her eyes bulged as she walked an inch closer, and stated into my face, “What do you mean you did not do anything? You got married”
Then I started to make a list in my head what I had done: I maintained my blog and wrote a few guest posts for blogger friends, I did my taichi almost everyday, I practiced calligraphy and meditation, I had a few new bears, I baked, I cooked…
But one most important thing I accomplished this year: I stayed alive.
So to all of you out there who struggle with clinical depression, anxiety, bipolar, illnesses, or whatever it is, kudos to you too!
That’s all it matters. That’s all you have to do. You stayed alive. You are still going on.
Happy New Year. Tomorrow will be better.