a tribute


I had a bad few days over the weekend: a panic attack and a sudden spiral down from an overwhelming feeling that life’s too tough to carry on through, and that all my efforts are futile. Then I remembered a dear friend who passed away earlier in the year, and he urged me on:

He had brain cancer.

He struggled on for a year longer than doctors predicted. He smiled. He laughed. He grinned. He accepted the reality and did not complain or blame the world. He continued laughing and singing. He ate his birthday cakes and blew the candles.

I was in some of my worst bouts of depression when I first heard the news. Back then, I couldn’t laugh. I couldn’t sing. I couldn’t smile. I had nothing but negativity in my thoughts. I wanted to die when I was very well alive.

He made a video recording while he was in hospital and told everyone to look at the positive side of things when challenges come – even on the verge of death. He asked that a burger be kept for me when given two one day, even though I had not spoken to him for years. He smiled. He laughed. He prayed for everyone else on his deathbed.

He’s fought his fight and ran his race.

He’s blissful in heaven now.

I am still on my journey. There will be ups and downs

But I can skip down the road with a smile like him.

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about Noch Noch

Enoch Li, (pen name: Noch Noch) was born and raised in Hong Kong and Australia. She has also studied / worked / lived in the US, France, UK, Japan, The Netherlands, China, and has travelled to more than 40 countries. She loves travelling and her curiosity in foreign cultures and languages has led her to enjoy her life as an international executive in the banking & finance industry. However, she was forced to take time off work in 2010 due to her illnesses and after spending time in recovery, cooking, practising Chinese calligraphy, reading and writing – in short, learning to take care of herself and letting out the residual work stress, she has transitioned into a Social Entrepreneur and founded BEARAPY to help corporates make workplaces mentally healthy, and support executives to become more resilient.