It has taken me FOREVER to create this blog, and those who know me know I’m not someone who procrastinates (well, not so much anyways)…. It is a seemingly easy task, but to do so whilst sick, in pain, and in depression is not exactly conducive to efficiency… especially when I felt very reluctant to talk openly about what I was going through for a while…But better late than never.
Finally it’s more or less presentable, with a few tweaks needed here or there, and to build a Chinese version next, but at least I can tell people the url to the website.
It is almost a relief to me that I’ve built this blog. like I said in my story, I’m sharing my experience for two main reasons: (1) to hopefully provide some inspiration and encouragement to those who need it for whatever reasons, and (2) to serve as a wake-up call to those killing their body cells bit by bit under stress, especially if they dont realize they are stressed — or refuse to admit it like I did initially.
However, the biggest motivation perhaps, is for me to write again, something that I have not done for a the last 6 years since I graduated and started working. It is an outlet for myself, to express my thoughts and feelings, and all part of my healing and recovery process. The soul and the emotions are all inextricably linked to the physical body. If my mind is not well, my body will suffer. Likewise when my body is in pain, my mood is low. And so, all the money I’m spending on the Chinese & Western medicine I’m taking, acupuncture, acupressure, detox, qi gong, and herbal therapy etc., will all be wasted if my mind and soul is not healed.
Therefore I must write. Rediscover myself. Reflect. Rejuvenate.
And my hope is that what I write will not fall on deaf ears, but if it would help one person out there today, then my prayers are answered.